Continuum

Sorry if my last entry ended rather abruptly but we are visiting the Hub's folks and we were quickly leaving to go somewhere.

But anyways...

I have to admit that I've been really blessed over this pregnancy. I've have virtually no bad symptoms throughout, I've thrown upa totalof 2 times when others are so sick they;re losing weight rather than gaining it, people complain of severe heartburn every night when IF I get it, it's minimal and I don't have to pee in the middle ofthe night nearly as much as I thought I would. Of course, this leads me to think that my next pregnancy (...) will be an absolute nightmare AND I'll be watching our son who could be a hyperactive little crazy man if the activity in my womb is any indication. I'm not yet at the point where I am tired of being pregnant and I must confess that I'm almost sad to see that I really only have roughly 4 weeks left. I am eager to have and hold our son but I'm also apprehensive about having another life completely and wholy dependent on me, which is completely normal. Plus the Hubs and I chose each other when we got married, knowing who each other was and this is bringing into that marriage a third person who we have no idea what he'll be like. He's a complete unknown right now.
I also wonder about post partum depression, I think it could be quite likely for me just bcz of other factors such as having just moved away from friends and into a completely new area, finding it more difficult to get around on top of a baby causing sleep deprivation. I am going to have to really work hard at not letting myself get isolated in my own little home.
We are living closer to Julie and the cousins now and she said to give her a call whenever I even just need a break but I know myself too well in that I would view calling her as admitting defeat somehow. I don't like admitting to others that I am incapable of handling something, I loathe it in fact. I enjoy and take pride in people finding me able and unflappable in situations that I don't want to shine a light on the fact that "hey, I'm only human too!"
Pride will be my downfall.

As I was saying before, there are still things we need to get for home and baby. We desperately need a chest of drawers for our bedroom bcz right now all that is in there is a bed and then luggage bags filled with clothes (we are such clothes horses!!!) We also need to get a cot/crib for the baby but that's not as desperate bcz for the first 1-3 months the baby will be sleeping in a moses basket/basinette. One thing I am worried about is that our home can get quite cold at night and I don't know how to warm it up without constantly keeping the heating on and running up the bill.
We need to get a sofa and a bookshelf (my God, we have SO many books!!! and that's after gutting the shelves before moving!) and all our floors are wood so a rug for the lounge and the hall would be great too but again, not as much a priority as other things. I think my nesting phase is kicking in lol. My parents will be coming at the beginning of April (baby's due the 8th so hopefully they'll be here a week before and then a week after the big day) and they'll be helping me get everything organized and situated which is good. I so want to be organized but I really lack the knack for it. I have such lovely ideas of how things should be but they never turn out right. Ah well...

So those are the major points for the next few weeks. I don't know when next I'll be online since we no longer have it at the house, I'm going to check on some deals to see if we can afford hooking it up but if not, I'll try the library's PC connections... Until then!